With no distractions...
No TV...
No internet...
No phone...
And hubby fast asleep...
In yesterday's blackout...
I sat with my Quran and my scented candle...
Bliss...

Blessed

I go from page to page... link follows link... I read... I click... I read... then I realise how blessed I am...
to have a laptop...
to have internet connection...
to be able to read...
then I turn my head to look out of the window...
and I see... blue sky... white clouds... green trees...
and I realise how blessed I am....
just to be able to see....

الحمد لله حمدا كثيرا طيبا مباركا فيه غير مكفي و لا مودع و لا مستغنى عنه ربنا

Allah be praised with an abundant beautiful blessed praise, a never-ending praise, a praise which we will never bid farewell to and an indispensable praise, He is our Lord.

What I've been up to...

... and moving...

PS. You were right Safiya!

As I stand praying 3esha listening to your moving voice reciting Allah's glorious words.... I can't stop my tears.... silently I weep.... I weep... for many reasons... in humbleness... in awe... the beauty of it... the words... and your voice... I weep... because I know I am going to miss you... and the state of khesoo3 you help me reach... I weep... because I pray and long deeply ... that one day ...my son ... or daughter will have this effect on somebody... I weep.... because I took this for granted...
Yet... I am glad... yes... I am glad that the change in my life has made me realise all this...

I should be asleep

It's been ages... ages... I kind of miss you my dear blog...
through you I've expressed my feelings... when I could...
through you I've healed inside...
through you I've met wonderful people...
through you I've made friends... virtual ... and real...
through you I've come to learn how different yet similar people are...
through you I've learnt to accept and appreciate differences between us...
through you.... I've grown...

I'm sorry dear blog that I've abandoned you.... I'm sorry I don't drop by... I'm sorry... I may not be able to promise to write a lot... but I can promise to come by more often...

I've missed you...

I love Skype... again :-)

I've said it before ... and am saying it again ... I luuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrve Skype... just got off an hour and a half of chatting with parents in Libya and big bro in Saudi... and me here in Egypt...conference call ... updating, chatting, laughing and talking about just about everything from religion to cars....laughed my head off... thought... and listened.... was lovely....al7amdulilah...7amdan katheeran...

Ya Rab laka al7amd kama yanbaghi leJalal Wajhek wa 3atheem soltanek

Dr. A

Yesterday, a friend from Iraq... who's actually my bro's friend... sent us an email with a link to a website he created in memory of his late father Dr. A.

Dr. A. was my dad's colleague and friend from 1991-2005 in Libya. They left in 2005 to go back to their homeland Iraq... only to discover that Dr. A had lung cancer ... for the next 2 years he bravely fought it... between Iraq and Lebanon for treatment... he died last March 29th... Allah yer7amo... God bless his soul and grant his wife and his only son A.. faith, peace, patience... Allah yehawen 3aleihom w yesabbarhom...

The site included pieces Dr. A had written... his life history... stuff his friends said and wrote about him ... and photos of him... I've always known Dr. A as this handsome, striking man... strong, outgoing and just "full of life".... most of his photos show just that... but I almost didn't recognise him in the photos taken in his last couple of years during his illness... got me thinking... again... at the things we take for granted... our health and vitality... and how it's really not in our hands...

All I can say is what A. says at the end of all his emails... that he wishes everyone good health always... "lel jamee3 dawaam else77a wel 3afeyah"

PS. "A" asked all those who visit his Dad's site to pray for him "ed3oloh belra7mah" ... and I, in turn, ask you to make a prayer for this man too...